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Hello again. After my fiasco-like convo...WHOA! I didn't even finish up telling you what happened with my phone call to the suicide hotline. So the guy finally said that he wanted to sspeak to my mom and then I am like freaking out cuz I didn't want to wake my mom, because I didn't know how she would react. I thought maybe she would be upset. So I am like bawling on the phone and the guy was like I can either give my mom the phone or he will have to send the police out to my house. I did NOT want that to happen, becuase I was absolutely tired of the police. So yeah, it took me forever to give my mom the phone, I just went in the room and woke her up and said the phone was for her. So she talked to him for a few minutes and then hung up and then, she comes in my room and we talk a bit, she asks me what's wrong and whatnot and I tell her, I'm all skeptical becuase I hate it when she uses stuff that I tell her against me when she gets frustrated, so I don't want to tell her anything, although I would like to be able to talk to her without her doing that. She asks me if I wanna go to school that day, but even though I didn't i told her I had to go becuase, I will freak if I don't, my history grade was totally in jeopardy missing a day of class could end up in some mean results. Also I have perfect attendance. So I got to school and I freak during my presentation, but completely glad when it's over. I get home and mom calls while she is on her way to work and says to get dressed. I'm so confused, wondering where could we be going. It's Tuesday ( my bad in the last post I just remembered that it was tuesday not monday, there was no school on monday). So yea, I get ready and we get in the car, I thought we night be going to church cuz we were heading in that direction, but we were in the car for like ever, we were in Atlanta and I'm like where are we going. So we arrive at Riverwoods Psychiatric Hospital. Great Just What I need, to be around other crazy people. How is that supposed to help. I obviously have a problem with other people knowing that I have problems, well not really becuase I am totally letting it out right now to the entire world to read. So well it took us forever to get me in there. And my parents leave me there with absolutely no belongings. That's just great....

~TCE