Hello. Sorry I haven't been keeping up with my blog daily. I am really stressed, but it really helps my stress to blog. Gosh I contradict myself so much. So I totally missed my appointement with my shrink this morning because my mom and I forgot I guess. Maybe she didn't forget and I left the house before she could day anything. Oh well. But the fact that I forgot really messed up my day. I really like seeing my shrink because he actually listens. I am one of those people who are always giving acvice and whatnot to others and putting my ideas and sometimes thoughts but no one listens. It's like no one cares about what I have to say about anything. I guess that's why I blog. Bloggers want to be heard and thats why they blog and ask people to read them. It's like a diary for me to let everything out to all anonymous people and people can post their commentaries on my entries. Well I really don't know what to do at this point. Did I mention that last Friday I freaked out on my mom. I was like screaming at her. She really didn't do anything to provoke it. I guess I was having a panic attack and she was around me and I just blew up. I had never yelled at her or anyone before, not like that. I was literally screaming at the top of my lungs and one of our neighbors called the cops cuase they thought something was really going wrong. Okay so I get to live with my cousin in Newark, New Jersey. She is a teacher for 10th grade Biology. I can't wait. I think I will stay here in Georgia until August before I go so I can spend my 16th birthday with my friends. I just hope I don't do anything to keep me here any longer. I have a court date on the 10th of June because of my shoplifting. *cringe*. My shrink said thatmy brain is probably undergoing something called dissociation. Something like that. I really wish I could forget about that incident. I am really ashamed of it. It wasn't even my intention, it just kinda happened. Well enough abou that. There is this teacher who is very good looking. I almost thought he was a student. He has some blog for this organization thing you should check it out at www.joshbruce.theworldrace.org. He really is gorgeous. He's tall and with a faux-hawk, too bad he is married. LOL. Well I am going to go now because I have stupid projects for school to worry about.
~TCE
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Sorry you missed the appointment with your shrink. I hate it when that happens! Therapy is so helpful to me.
How long are you going to live your cousin in New Jersey?
Blogging is very therapeutic for me, too. I think you're right, bloggers need to be heard and that's why they put their lives out on the internet for people to comment on.
I dissociate on occasion. It's not as bad as it used to be.
i'm interested in reading your blog more but i can't get it to feed into google reader so i rarely read it. is there a reason for this?
i dont kno why this is so...sorry. thanks for reading my blog tho. i appreciate it
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